This is a picture of the kids at Darien Lake- we have season passes and actually plan on going later today. It's not far, so I don't feel like we have to spend the whole day to get our $'s worth. We have a mix of riders- Jayna and Whitney both like the rides like sleigh ride, the swings, scrambler- things like that, but they both also enjoy the rollercoasters - although Jayna hasn't tried them all yet. However, with the age difference, Whitney doesn't always want to ride with Jayna. Andrew is a straight roller coaster rider, so sometimes Whitney gets annoyed because he won't ride the what I'll call the medium rides with her. And their mom is hardly a rider at all- I'll do the log ride and the boat ride, the carousel- but I don't enjoy rollercoasters,and the many rides that are bound to make me sick. When their Dad comes- he can do about all of the rides- just doesn't enjoy the water area. (maybe if it was HOT) Jayna is a trooper riding rides by herself as I wait for her, but sometimes I feel bad- I mean I know it's more fun to ride With someone- but they have a lame mom- sorry! 
Jayna at her year end gymnastic show. She did a great job. I'm proud of her. She was funny though- She would wave and smile at her Dad, then make faces or turn away from me. ( I think I did get a few waves) She can be a character. This year when she would get on the bus you seldom got a wave back- sometimes she would turn away from us, sometimes make a face and once in awhile a smile and a wave. One of her best friends from school is moving- it's a bummer. Buffalo wouldn't be so bad if people stayed here, but it seems like people are always moving out. Andrew "graduated" from middle school yesterday. He kind of had a "whatever" attitude about the whole thing. He's a good kid, but I worry about him some. I was miserable at that age- and worry that he tends be somewhat the same- just not very happy, not making close friends, not getting involved in extra activities - he's been taking guitar lessons, but seems like he isn't enjoying it like he use to. I don't know how much is just normal teenagerishness, and at what point to be more concerned. Like I said I was miserable these years, on the other hand, Richard was loving life. Why isn't it possible for my kids to take any of my positive qualities (whatever that would be?) but they get the negative ones. Ugh!!
Unfortunately I have gained back a lot of the weight I lost. It's so frustrating. I try to not beat myself up over it- I realize it is very normal to do so and there are worse things than being fat, but it's not where I want to be. I try hard to not let my weight determine what I do- I remember being little and my Mom not wanting to swim with us because she didn't want to be in a swim suit. (that's my memory, who knows, in reality it could be different) So in cases like that I just try to suck it up (and suck it in), because I don't want my kids to miss out and I don't want my weight to determine what I do. I did sign up to take tennis lessons this summer. Although I'm heavier than I was as a teen, I think I feel more comfortable with my body and self than I did then (well, most days)
Thrilled to add back my reading section- yay for no college classes!!!
Just read- Still Alice- a great book, highly recommend it, about a women diagnosed with early onset alzheimers (fiction), Snow Flower and the Secret Fan- an okay read, interesting learning about the culture, but a bit too much guilt for me.
Reading Now- I capture the Castle by Dodie Smith- Maybe a third way done with this book and I would consider it a very delightful read- not thought provoking or deep so much, but just totally enjoyable.
and so it goes...
